by Carlos A. Pittella
after Britain’s Got Talent*
Sister Jane is interrupted & interrupted This is not working Simon says So Jane leaves the stage makeup dripping dreams all over Can this get any more melodramatic I think thru my headphones from a crafts-cluttered floor in my daughter’s borrowed room waiting for her to bypass a crowd of night terrors into REM It may take half an hour borders still closed anyways So bring it on, YouTube whatever you suggest which happens to be a new compilation of Simon’s golden buzzers most of which I’ve watched but not Calum’s after his sister He comes shaking to the Judges: you’re Jane’s brother, you ok? He nods from a bulletproofless vest: I’ll sing a Robyn but slower I: I am that line Calum’s about to cross my truest home he’ll pass right thru me just you wait Calum: I’ve already crossed I know but want to linger Simon: I’ma press that golden buzzer if he crosses one more time Line: did Calum just leave his sister behind me? Sister: leave me that’s how horizons work if you must see thru Plato: this is not a cave we’re not meant for scratching walls the horizon’s but another shadow a continuous swirl Line: I’m that golden string Blake unraveled from the endless end to follow me back homeless the horizon is such a thin place Chorus: we know Calum knows he left his ego home now there’s only the crossing his Self a spreading horizon Line: It would be so much easier to rise & forget me Simon: but you keep coming back via borders of thin air Chorus: so our imagination can walk it tightrope talker Sister: I tried too hard to sign that line while your art is swinging Name: I’m a song mourning itself the callus of a name dissolved Buzzer: the hand on me about to release lines into abyss Daughter: eyes moving rapidly now consciousness crossed I: I too am a dancer prancer of the thin horizon Customs officer: but Calum didn’t try to cross as soon as possible House: borders are window frames Calum’s a storm shelter Horizon: cross exactly 50% of wherever you think the sky is Dance: I keep dancing on my own but now’s the Dance saying it
* In April, 2015, Calum Scott performed a version of Robyn’s “Dancing on My Own” on Britain’s Got Talent, receiving a standing ovation & Simon Cowell’s golden buzzer. To date, the YouTube video of his audition has gathered more than 385M views.
Carlos A. Pittella
Carlos A. Pittella (he/him) is a Latinx poet & the recipient of a Frontier 2022 Global Poetry Prize. Born on traditional lands of the Tupi & Goitacá (Rio de Janeiro), he lives in Tiohtià:ke/Montréal. His writing is haunted by borders, having recently appeared in Glyphöria, Radar, & The Capilano Review.