Headlight Anthology

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If you can’t find God in a nightclub, you’re not looking hard enough


Audio clip of Dru Gary reading “If you can’t find God in a nightclub, you’re not looking hard enough”

by Dru Gary


I think it’s not God if you can draw a circle around it 
Or alternatively
It is God if you cannot draw a circle around it

You shuffle across the wilted wooden stage
Performing the same tired routine but I’m entranced
I dig my nails into the wall that separates the DJ booth from the crowd

I thought you were God because of how quickly you moved
The way you materialized behind me
Now your arm parts the curtain, pulls me into the dressing room

You throw iridescent glitter into my eyes and I cry
Make you make it up to me
Will you zip me up?

You know how I love to zip you up
Can you get my bodysuit from my bag?
I love doing this. I pick your lime green and black zebra print hand-stoned catsuit, handle it with care

Can you get me a shot?
You say from at least four feet above, your mouth close to my ear, hunching to close the gap between us
Of course yes, of course I can

The requests escalate, you raise the stakes
Can you find Brett for me?
I find Brett, get your little plastic baggie and slip it into the crotch of your costume

The lights are coming on, the bar is cold and drafty
I feel you behind me
I didn’t even notice, we’re alone now
Can you walk me home?

Dru Gary

Dru Gary is a poet currently based in Montreal.  Her work is often autofictional and aims to meld the real with the imaginary.